What’s Required to Receive
the Art of Allowance

I heard a quote not long ago that went something like, ‘In order for anything in your life to not be going well, you’ve likely been unwilling to be, know, perceive or receive.’

Oof, that hit me right in the gut as I resonated with the hammer of truth in it.

In my own experience, I spent a large chunk of my life wallowing in depression and the tunnel of chronic illness. I lamented that I couldn’t ‘get better’ till I felt better. But I knew, fundamentally, that this betrayed a ‘knowing’ I had at that time. I had hints of knowing that I was using depression and chronic illness to hide.

Ouch, it’s hard to be vulnerable and admit that.

Now that I have the 20/20 vision of hindsight I can see that this ‘knowing’ would pop into my mind every now and then. It wasn’t a thought that I dwelled on and conjured. It was definitely a knowing which rose into my consciousness, without judgment or scorn. It just appeared, like a cloud, which I quickly and repeatedly batted away.

This insistent knowing continued to flair over those years. It pointed to something I was unwilling to “be”. I was unwilling to be Me. Weird, intuitive, kind, hyper-sensitive, vulnerable, and courageous me - in hiding. It’s no wonder I was sick!

Becoming myself has been a journey. It required a lot more courage than I ever could have imagined. But critically – it required allowance. Allowance to let myself be the total freak of nature that I am. Allowance to lose everything I thought was crucial to my survival and happiness: my career, friends, and family.

Poof gone.

Now I am in a beautiful state of sublime receiving. It’s as if every debt owed to me by this glorious universe is coming due. Everything I thought I lost has been backfilled with authentic joy. Joy in my body. Joy in my relationships. Joy emanates from my very being. It’s good to be me.

I wish all those years ago I had asked for help. I honestly didn’t know how. But so many of you - my clients and friends, inspire me with the support you choose for yourself. So, keep on keeping on – allowing for you. And if you need some help connecting the dots – like I had to do for me, give me a holler.